The Day's of Elijah

The time leading up to getting you, I spent a little time journaling my thoughts. I was so excited to meet you. My very first entry said talked about my experience learning who you were and that you would be coming to us. I talked about having told our parents you were coming and the worry that people had for us because of your complicated diagnoses and the expected outcome you were supposed to have. First of all, let me say that your life expectancy was WRONG!! You are thriving my boy! You are out riding bikes, bowling, and living your best life. I am so proud to call you mine! Yesterday I made the silly attempt to take you out in your stroller while I roller bladed. I haven't done that since like junior high, which was a long time ago. Luckily I didn't fall and you seemed to enjoy it. You love being outside and I love being able to take you out! 

I have not done the best job keeping up with journaling about our time together and I want to do better for sure. The other day I saw a person that I follow on Instagram and she keeps a journal that I am totally envious of and would like to try. She takes pictures and they are small stickers that she puts in her journal and talks about the day. I want to figure out how I could do this same thing and keep a journal of each day with you and call it "The Day's of Elijah". I hope to do a better job keeping up with everything! I love you Elijah, more than you will ever know!

Last night I was watching a movie and it had me in tears. It was called Lifemark and it was all about adoption. The appreciation he had for his adoptive and biological parents was overwhelmingly emotional for me. I hope that you can have the same appreciation for us that he had. I hope that one day I will know how you feel!



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